Okay I spent a good deal of this morning sitting on on my couch, amidst piles of camping gear, staring at my mug of tea and expirencing the overwhelming feeling that I wanted to cry into the shoulder of someone and be held. I am that over my head in work and I am lacking in outlets for my emotion. Any freetime I have I cannot enjoy because I always feel like I should be doing my homework or studying. I just want a day off...

As a stress reliever I'm going to list all the things that are bothering me:
-The fact that I can't pick up Russian as fast as the teacher teaches
-That I need documentation of why I was gone on thursday but we didn't have the time or money to see a doctor.
-That I cannot for the life of me remember how to do basic pre-calc and even trig. I feel like I've failed terribly when I knew something before but I cannot do it again. I hate the first few weeks of school because of that.
- The fact that I never get to do anything with anyone anymore.
-I am without a special someone. Many of you say that no one need a person, and that is probably true, but I would really, really like one.
-That I am tired though I got a full nights sleep and little problems no frustrate me to no end and I cannot explain why.

Okay, now I'll do an equal number of good things +1 to tilt the scale:
- I'm taking classes at the U of M! For free! This is too, too good to pass up even if it is hard.
- I e-mailed a girl in my Theater class and she's going to give me notes from the discussian I missed.
- I'm slowly remembering math again and with time and help from friends I'm sure things will get better.
- I'm going to see a play next week with the lovely Jory. There is something about going to a play that is magical and perfect for me, no matter where it is. The atmosphere is just lovely. If anyone ever wants to take me out on a date tell them to take me to a play and I'll be in heaven. Thank you Jory!
- I have wonderful, caring friends who I love in a way that intimacy can not hold a candle to. It is not the same but still as good. Thank you all, espically those of you who would actually let me cry into your shoulders.
- After my U classes I always get a flood of energy from knowing that I'm going back to South and it makes the walk there so nice.
- I am loved and cared for my so many people that I am unworthy of and so happy to know that they like me for being me and nothing else.

I'm not going to spell check this because I don't feel like it so bare with me.

oh and for anyone doing PSEO, Stephanie and I are going to take Ballroom dancing next semester at the U, hopefully, and I was wondering if anyone else is interested. It should be an easy class and it seems like it would be a good way to get exercise and have a break from the day, for me at least.